Fool Me Once

It isn't in my nature to hold grudges at someone for whatever offenses they may have caused me. I believe in forgiveness and second chances. I would want to be forgiven if I offended or upset someone and I feel I should forgive too.

Yet, when does forgiveness reach its limit? Does it have a limit? Should we allow someone to continually hurt us? Either, emotionally, physically or financially. When is enough, really enough?

As much as I would love to have people be in my life, it's clear, perhaps, there are some who shouldn't be apart of it, no matter how much I care for them. Things haven't changed and I don't see them changing in the future.

So far, I have done good, getting rid of all the negative emotions in my life and accepting what I repressed. As hard as it was to admit it all, I felt so at easy and calm. After finally admitting my feelings, I feel as if the chains that held me down, were suddenly broken and things around me seemed to fall into place.

Now, after tonight, I think I've reached my limit with someone. As much as I care for this person, they weren't meant to be apart of my life and as much as I tried to keep the peace, he isn't interested in peace. He's more concerned about the past and the best way to make me jealous. That isn't the kind of relationship I want in my life nor do I deserve it. I've accepted who I am and who I am not.

The arguments have surpassed the memorable times.

Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. I've been fooled too many times and I've always ended up the fool. It's time to make my life what I want it to be and fill it with positive, optimistic, mature individuals.

As easy as it would be to hate him, I can't. I wish him nothing but the best and believe our paths are better separated here. While we don't hate each other. Hate is an ugly emotion to have inside and I don't want to have that awfulness inside me.

In all our lives, it's up to us to put our lives in the direction we know is best. Life isn't easy and we make it what it is and I choose to be happy and full of love. True love.

-Eric