As of late, I've been contemplating my relationship with G. As posted in Vol. 1, the question of if I am in love with G went unanswered. It's hard for me to answer this question because I am not sure if the answer is based on emotion or facts. Perhaps, the answer needs to be a combination of both. If that's the case, then which emotions and facts do I allow to help me decide the fate of our relationship?
My past three relationships I have been the one who ended the relationship. In those relationships, the emotional connection was lost. I felt so betrayed. I am a person that does not need a lot of physical affection to be happy, but what I do need is the deep inner connection to the person. A simple email of "Thinking about you. I love you." would brighten my day, or even what G and I do, we 'miss-call' one another and that means "Thinking about you/I love you." As of late, those miss-calls have all but ceased.
Perhaps our greatest enemy in our saga is distance. If I have failed to mention, we are in a Long Distance Relationship. Distance is a true test as to whether we are strong enough as a couple to endure and not give into temptations and loneliness. In the end, distance should be our ally. Meaning, it was the thing which brought us closer together. Instead, these past few days distance has dealt us a blow. I have been feeling like our connection has been lost. I miss G, not just physically but emotionally. It's like an absence of a person who is sitting next to you but miles away. I feel we both lost our way and distance was the culprit.
The things which are uncommon between us are things which can easily be cured. We can learn to love or at the very least, appreciate his music and view points.
In the end, our love for each other will help us over come and fill this void that has grown between us.
"If LOVE is not your foundation, Hurt and Fear will conquer all."
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