Hell Yeah!

Well, today I paid of two large bills which were hindering me from moving forward. So, now I am able to take two steps forward!! Just two other small bills and I'll be free from a large portion of my debt.

I feel good about it. At first, I was going to buy a MacBook Pro for college, but I thought to myself; "It's probably best to pay off two large bills now then buying something I really don't need." And now, I'm glad I did. I can buy that laptop later.

Well, I thought I'd just share that with the cosmos.

Have a great night everyone.

30th Revolution Extravaganza

It's a few weeks now since my friend and I have been discussing traveling next year. Having these few weeks to ponder where I'd like to go, I know now that I'd like to travel to NYC for my 30th Birthday party. It would be so exciting to celebrate such a "milestone" in one's life in a place such as NYC.

There are so many things to see in NYC and so many things to do, I just need help determining what activities I should put on my list. Any suggestions would be wonderful!!!!

Is it just me or does this month seem like it's just dragging? All the other months seem to have zipped on by, but August seems to be dragging its ass! Perhaps it's that classes are starting again or that next month would have been year since the ex and I would have been together.

Whatever the reason is, I'm tired of August! I'm in the mood for some new things, some new friends, some new music, some new flirting. OH! Speaking of flirting, there was a waiter today that gave me "the eye". It felt so good to see those brown eyes looking deep into mine. His smooth pink lips moving as he spoke, that sexy smile showing his white teeth. Maybe, it was just my mind playing tricks but it felt so good to finally flirt again! I missed it!

Well, I don't have much else to say but PARTY ON!!!! \m/

~E~

Enlightened With Goodbye

Sometimes we don't understand why things happen the way they do. Things never seem to be fair in life and especially in love. Yet, it is my understanding that things do happen for a reason. We just have to be open to hear why, even though it may hurt.

Here is a poem that I wrote regarding my ex bf. Now, after having written this, I am truly at peace with the relationship.

Farewell

My heart crumbled with your reply,
My world fell apart with your goodbye.
Who was I to ask you to stay?
You needed to go away.

I don’t understand though I said I do,
Lonely nights thinking of you.
What I would have done to keep you here,
What I would have given to bring you near.

My failed attempts to erase you from memory,
How could I ever forget our entire story?
I always was impossible doing the impossible,
But loving you was always inevitable.

To hate you my bitterness craved,
Your love my soul did save.
Never before have I loved,
Never again will I cave.

Tomorrow seems like an eternity,
When compared to our mortality.
Countless times I searched for an answer,
Motives and reasons to continue on together.

Deep inside the emptiness grows,
Down and down the tears flow.
Yet I’m happy for all you’ve accomplished,
Your memory time will never extinguish.

I finally understand why,
The absence of goodbye.
Enlightened with your farewell,
Understanding myself very well.

Now I look deep into my reflection,
Sadness a bittersweet emotion.
Never could I hate you,
Forever will I love you.

By Eric D. Spitty © 2009

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